I practice meditation daily. That is the statement I was presented with in a daily meditation challenge I started in January. One of the things I’m learning about meditation is that it is more about noticing the thoughts rather than silencing them. Since I decided to join the Slice of Life Challenge, the thoughts I notice most frequently while I meditate are thoughts of writing. Like a cat chasing the reflection of light, my mind is chasing thoughts of what to write.
Over the past few weeks, the most frequent thoughts I have noticed in my meditation practice are related to a violent tragedy that shook our school community. As a social worker I have often consoled those in grief. Sometimes the grief is the result of heart wrenching tales of loss, sometimes minor losses or seemingly trivial shifts in friendships, relationships. Words of comfort came easily for me, but this tragedy was beyond anything I could comprehend. I found there were no words to help. I sat in silence, in sorrow, in grief with my students, colleagues and myself. The only thing that helped was to just be present with each other acknowledging each others pain. As I noticed these thoughts in meditation this is what came out today-
I don’t know how to explain
I don’t know how to make sense
of the insensible
I just know how to hold love in my heart
and to allow the pain to fall out